Sensing God

If Jesus is with us continually, why do we not sense Him evenly? Why are there crescendos in our awareness? Why are there rests in which we sense nothing? When we speak of “sensing God’s presence,” we are crossing multiple …

Not A Feeling

After a worship service years ago, one of my children said, “Everyone else feels God but me. Maybe I don’t really know him.” “Or,” I suggested, “maybe knowing God isn’t about a feeling.” In our experience-addicted age, we tend to …

A Leader’s Prayer

One of my core devotional disciplines is Scripture-praying. I pray God’s Word over my loved ones and myself. For years, I have prayed Moses’ prayer over my life: “Let my teaching fall like rain and my words descend like dew, like showers on new …

q&a: Lent and The Twilight Zone

The last several days have been, well, a fusion of bizarre circumstances and heartaches. Friday’s bizarre: Barry and I surprised the kids with a Spring-break night at a hotel with a great pool and at 8:30pm the smoke detector battery failed and began blaring which …

Milestones

mile·stone /ˈmīlˌstōn/ noun: an action or event marking a significant change or stage in development. Milestones: my response to one surprised me this week. After all, I have graduated before: from highschool, from college, from grad school. None of those milestones reduced …

Disowning Disgrace

It was not her fault. She certainly did not ask for it. She did nothing to earn it. But she still chose to own it. Elizabeth owned disgrace: “In these days he has shown his favor and taken away my disgrace among the …

While the sky was roasting marshmallows

At 6:30am this morning, a stretch limo (yes, CTCA really does transport their patients in limos) picked me up from the hospital lobby to carry me and five other patients to the airport. It was dark at first. I suppose …

Jesus and me

Four days ago I was soaking in the sun and Son’s warmth on a desert prayer retreat in Phoenix, AZ. Today I am typing in a waiting room preparing for my routine breast cancer follow-up and a small procedure in …

The Reality of Mystery

Frank Laubach prayed, “If every annoyance can be made to remind me to turn and grip Your hand and ask You, ‘What are you saying through this vexation?’ then I can turn life’s rough spots into Your vocabulary.”1  Reality—be it …

The Widow’s Watch–A Walk with Old Anna

Becoming a mother, raising a family, growing old with my husband…so many dreams were buried on the day he died. But the living must live. So I asked, “what now young widow?” and my heart led me to the Temple. …